A year filled with magic, some sadness, more magic and a shitload of learning, I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I was inspired by a movie I saw a few days ago ‘Waterhouse Down’ on Netflix, a movie about rabbits on their quest to find a new home. What stuck out was faith, visions and of course the magic of storytelling, this journey filled with adversity, deceit, friendships, trust, and the character of a leader, all reflections of life as we know it as humans.
So here’s a story that I imagined happened to me at birth and why I have this unwavering sense of faith. In my dreams the day I was born 13 Angels cradled my body, they held my hand and nudged me in different directions each year; I learned how to walk. They whispered thoughts of love and kindness in my ear, the wings of my angels laid softly upon my heart when protection was needed. Empathy was received through vibrations and my spirit received everything kind it could ever imagine, not through words, never taught, but only felt. As I grew up my hands glowed with a kindness of touch, always ready to lay them upon someone else in need. Always willing to help in ways that would seem impossible to others.
I struggled as I grew, late teens early twenties but somehow I held on. It must have been those Angels. I never had imaginary friends but always an overwhelming fill of faith, I stare at a tree that shakes and it speaks to me. Maybe a cloud in the sky shaped like an angel gives me peace during a time filled with anxiety. This faith didn’t come from my family so I can only give credit to the Angels I believed in. They were always willing to answer my prayers when I needed it. They didn’t stop me from making horrible decisions, but they were always there when I was ready to learn from it, when I needed to heal and move on.
This year has taught me a lot about high vibrations, being closer to my higher self and higher power. Things start to align more and more. We use the term law of attraction or manifestation, I guess you can say it’s true if you knew you were asking the universe for things, I didn’t. I found myself doing something different this year, I chose to say goodbye to things that weren’t meant for me or my higher good, I didn’t just say it, but I grieved it. I felt whatever emotion I had to feel, and accepted what it was, it was only then that I felt a healing, all of this made possible from my angels on earth that guided me through this process. I thanked these things for showing itself and was grateful to be in a space where i could handle it. I was shown what no longer worked for me. By doing this I found I left room for the things I always wanted.
The things that were more aligned with who I am as a person started to surround me in every area of my life. Spiritually connecting to others, building and bonding incredible friendships, finding that the racing heart associated with anxiety has only happened a handful of times this last year, and not weekly like it has in the past.
I’ve never been shy to express my faith, I've never been religious, but faith has truly carried me through some of the roughest times in my life. My angels visit me in my dreams, they text me, they call me and they might even leave me a comment on my Instagram post.
The last few months has felt like surrendering to my highest vibration, and feeling like a team of Angels shaking me to do the next thing. This really feels like manifestation at its highest offering. Events and people showing up in places that can only be seen as God’s plan. I believe all made possible because each person in this manifestation was ready to receive, they asked and we all arrived. This has not been my easiest journey. I had some extreme moments of fear and I did a lot of grieving this year, but my heart stayed willing and my feet stayed strong and I continued to take that next step.
Another thing I learned this year is I’m not in a rush, but I’m also not just going to sit around and wait. Manifestation or Law of Attraction is not just about saying something and it happens, it’s about preparing yourself, becoming better and doing the work, remembering that you’re also a part of someone else’s journey. It’s about acknowledging the angels that help you every single day with whatever they did, no matter how big or small.
So to end 2018 I would like to thank some of my Angels that have help me this year. The ones that inspired me and encouraged me through things. This is only a small piece of what I’m grateful for.
Matteo and Kate - That conference call through tears and confusion, open arms and a place to call home and of course where I am at now.
Chris - Beyond words what I feel about our friendship. Thanks for being that person.
Grandma - My angel since day 1 who always saw right through me. Thank you for being such a powerful presence all my life.
Krystal - My connection to just speak, to just be. My guardian angel that called me every day for a year + when I needed it the most. You made me feel accepted.
Jayne - For trying to say no to sponsoring me but instead listening to that inner voice that said yes. Thank you for being my family, for randomly showing up that one time at a meeting when I needed you the most. And for so much more.
Di - I never would have imagined finding someone like you on the other side of the world from me. The similarities in style and creativity, your kindness and unconditional love, a friendship I will cherish forever.
Sara - Recently entering my life you have shown me calm, forgiveness, laughter, encouragement and healing. I’m so glad I didn’t have you role play a part in the connections workshop, lol. Grateful for your friendship and support.
Gigi - I still can’t believe after all these years, my Bronx girl ended up here in Bali and all that has come out of it. So incredibly proud of your journey now and how you acknowledge the women who helped you in your time of need and your commitment to pass that along. I’m so grateful for what you and Maia did for me on this project.
Michelle - For really being my rock through it all and loving me unconditionally since the beginning. For always encouraging me and believing in me and praying for me.
I have found a power in embracing my imperfections and loving what is. I stopped spending time thinking about what I didn’t like and more time acknowledging my gifts. These are the three things I did the last few months that made all the difference in whats to come.
High vibrations - If you find yourself completely connected to something, even if its for a moment, stay in it and say “I am deserving of this moment", and I will be accepting of it when it happens again".”
Shook by Angels - If you know your angels are trying to tell you something or that one friend or family member is encouraging you to take a leap of faith to do something you know you want, but are too scared to do it. Ask yourself “What if” and then ask yourself how many times will you pass this opportunity because you’re not ready. No one but you can make the decision to be ready, but acknowledge we all need a push and encouragement and it’s ok to accept the help.
Thank your Angels - Pray and say thank you, stop in the middle of your walk and just say thank you, pick up the phone and tell someone thank you. It really doesn’t have to be every person you know, but the more we practice the easier it gets to share gratitude.
Thank you to all my Angels that held me, cared for me, and protected me since birth. I am feeling extra grateful to be able to stand here today; grateful.
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
Mucho Love, Jamie