Hi my name is Jamie and its been 15 days since I've written my last blog, and now I exhale. My weekly blogs are my confessions. I'm still amazed at how easy I can forget the things that work for me, how easy it can be to get all wrapped up in my head and let my thinking stop me from healing.
My blog has been the one consistent thing I've had to let go and release that baggage from the previous week, and when I don't do that I almost immediately see a decrease in creativity and focus. What I have done is give that thing in my head power it doesn't deserve.
So let's start by saying STOP!...I'm not a fan of yours and I never have been. Have you ever had that one person that knows they are not well liked by you and can never get the subtle hints that you're not interested. Well I have, and recently being back in Melbourne amongst all of my gorgeous friends there is that one that just doesn't get it. So I came up with this plan in my head to say "Hi, I'm Glad you're doing well but I'm just not a fan and would appreciate you not approaching me anymore' uuuugggghhhh!!!! and I've had two opportunities since being back to do this.
Maybe I'm just too nice but all I could do was be polite, I'll shake your hand but I won't stay to converse. I'll give you generic responses but I won't stand to greet you. Prior to me leaving I blocked you on my social media accounts and had to unblock you just to do it again with the hopes you would get it. That obviously didn't work, so here we are dedicating a blog (don't get excited) it's not about you but more about why I continue to have this boundary issue with people like you.
I know before in the past I might have been worried about my secrets being revealed, things I might have been ashamed of getting out, and so I allowed people to play with my boundaries. But that's not me today, especially now. I know what you know and I have no fear of it, who I am isn't confined to a ziplock bag of collected pasts. I am better than that and I focus on how I can be better today than I was yesterday. I don't focus on wanting to be liked I focus on being kind and generous and honest and because of that I'm well liked.
My blog is also my complete and honest way of sharing my journey, one that is public and for anyone to see. It allows me to show you who I truly am and maybe someone can relate to it. So here I am reminding you and people like you that 'I'm not a fan', and I don't now if I'll ever be able to say that to you because it's just not my character to do so, but it is my character to answer honestly if asked. So if you want to know if I'm a fan of yours or not, all you have to do is ask and I will honestly answer. But if you feel you have to ask then I'm probably not a fan.
Fan or not, I'm right here writing and sharing my story at www.blameitonjamie.com and can assure you anything you'd like to know can be found here.
And this is my first step to removing unwanted energies from my surroundings and protecting my newly found boundaries. This weeks blog is short and simple, a subject that I believed wasn't necessary to talk about, but after taking an honest look sometimes the smallest things create the biggest blocks. Don't let anything stop you from being honest with yourself. Comment below and share how you have handled similar situations or protect your boundaries.
Peace and Serenity, Jamie